RIP Michelle my friend my love

There was no one else in the world like Michelle, she was very funny and just someone who always drew people to her by her personality and good easy going vibes. She always did what she wanted and had a sort of lovable stubbornness about her that was admirable. She would do the funniest things, we were a big group of friends who did a lot of traveling and partying together over the years and Michelle was at the heart of that. One thing she did for example was roll up the door mats at the casino we were staying at in Vegas and lol straight up steal them, so it said "Sam's Town" every time I walked into her room and looked down, for a while. She liked a lot of music but we used to go to Punk Rock bowling in Vegas so that might give you an idea. I'm so grateful for the time I had with Michelle. We were very close friends for many years until alcoholism started to pull us apart. Michelle almost died from her drinking because it had done a lot of damage to her liver some years ago, and I was spiraling out of control with my addiction to alcohol as well. I regret not having spent more time with her, I was isolating and she would come by and we would hold hands and go for these walks and chat in the middle of the night, she would encourage me in my thoughts about getting sober and going to rehab. So, I did get sober and moved and Michelle unfortunately went back to drinking and using prescription drugs that we believe were supplied by her now fiance who was an LVN on disability. Her condition worsened and I didn't know how serious it was, but we were in touch and she would tell me that she was proud of me for being sober and that she was trying, that she had a spurt of time here and there. I did my best to encourage her and just shared what was working for me. I so badly wished she had the desire in herself to just trust us and get in recovery, but those internal voices of addiction won out as they do for many. Just before she died, her fiance left the house for some medical issue "a hurt knee" and left her there alone, and she was really in no shape to be left alone. He went to this hospital notorious for hooking up people with pain meds and disappeared for 4 days, didn't think to have someone check on her till 3 days went by. During that time she most likely had a seizure or likely ODed on prescription medication. When her mom found her she was on the ground and had defecated all over herself and was non responsive, upon examination the doctors estimated she had been on the ground for 3 days alone and without any sustenance. I got a call to get to the hospital and got there about midnight on Saturday and was there with just her mom and brother and this fiance. It was soo sad, and a very difficult sight as her skin was jaundice and her body had filled with fluids, she was being kept alive at this point by various life support devices, and was supposedly brain dead. We all said goodbye and I had some private time with her and took a picture below holding her hand. She died on Sunday morning of organ failure as a result of her addiction and was just 37 years old. We are all totally devastated, she had hundreds of friends and everyone is so sad. She had an account on live leak that she made when she lived on Catalina island. It was a way me and her could talk using LL chat and we had many funny and entertaining conversations. Her name on LL was buffalo milk lol, because on Catalina there are random roaming buffalo that are the descendents of buffalo left there from a movie shoot a long time ago. Anyways, Michelle was more than a friend to me for a long time and I've never felt the kind of connection I have always felt with her. I just hope if someone reads this who has an addiction to alcohol or drugs that you can pause and consider what your future will likely be, and it's what mine will be too if I go back to drinking ... it's not pretty and it ends badly. If that's what you are dealing with find help through a support group. Rest in peace Michelle the world won't be the same without you and neither will I.

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[Smudgen]

Man , that's a tough one GG.
Stay on ye path.

*smiles & misses "wild" chat time ....... a lil'bit

[CrapFactory]

Condolences.

[dan123]

My condolences mate. I've heard you talk about your struggles before and it's not to be taken lightly.
My lady has just come back today after her uncles funeral. I always had a great time with him, great fun and a great man. We always had a few beers together at family things, I just took that as normal drinking.
Sadly it wasn't, it was nothing normal.

If you're enjoying it too much, it's probably something you shouldn't be doing.

My sincere condolences GG.

(Sorry about my little preach there, it's still a little rough here too.)

[tarnoch]

My daughter just told me my ex is cooking meth in a trailer in North Carolina, back at it . Sorry for your loss GGPPGG

[gerryowen]

condolences

[kasheku]

very sad. thinking of you g

[sunrise60]

How very sad. Keeping a good thought for you g

[jayboulware]

My condolences gg. Stay strong in memory of the good support she gave you. Sometimes we can talk the talk really good, but not so much walk it. Be proud that you can do both.

[papapang2007]

Great remembrance G. My condolences.